A Cup Of My Thoughts Part 1

{pure green tea, taken from not so locally/originated, marche}

Kinda odd when i think about myself, i change. And i love it. Whether it's my personal choice, hobby, clothing, style, even life, it's amazing how my brain/synapses works. And how strange if someone don't want to change, at all. Just like some friends of mine; one of them afraid to be stand by herself so she let her being led by power of pack, being controlled, not by friendly approach. And some of them found themselves comfort, maybe too much, by stick to the same group, years by years, kindergarten 'till senior-hi, and the worst case was they created what i always called 'evil'-circle phenomenon. 

Okay...'evil'-circle. First, is not paganized spiritual propaganda to made fear of bunch of us, it's sort of phenomenon in my own head. Just imagine this; 1 player/shadow leader, 4-5-else? ex-s in the same 'friendship' mood, 7-8 jokey, and another type of cheerios, equal, yup a one whole damn circle. It happens a long time and made me never forgot that kind of "Big Love" compound scenes, yeah...just yuck! So...if change is wrong thing to do, stuck in that 'evil'-circle situation is ten thousands worst, especially for a spectators (one of them, like me).

As spectator, i spend my teen-on-the-hi-school days on mesmerizing. Watching some over-dramatize plot and force to devour it. Sorrow? Sadness? No. I've seen perfectly, my eyes goes bright, methaporically. How religious those 'evil'-circle kids so with their 'love' preach they torture one weakling who already lost her dad, or just because someone cannot mingle like their up-standard so they can easily dumped them out of school. Bully? Of course not. New Bully On The Block? Oh yeah...don't forget to add some angelic-oh-so-cute face one, and spread-some-love-preach, now you get it. And FYI those 'evil'-circle kids are the proud p&w chapel member, how appropriate.

So about change thing, it's good to be changeable, if you know what you deal with it. It's all about taking control of yourself, not by others. And also don't forget that you believe in G-d, that means you have to not screwed yourself easily, because we're not pathetic creature. Use your brain, heart, and others functionally, it helps you everything, yup...be perfectly clean and 'clean'. 

{your biggest enemy are located in your thoughts, sometimes}